CHIASM lyrics

ANGRY TREE- i finally watch you/ your world is all built inside/
i cannot fly away/ before you fall inside mine/ inside mine/ and as i watch you/
our worlds become intertwined/ and it won't go away/ because you've grown inside mine/
sometimes i watch you/ your world is built inside mine/ and i will find a way/
to keep you held inside mine/ you are the one that i've been dreaming of/
you've thrown away all that became my love/ i can't accept the way it has become/
and now the pain has only just begun

ANSWER IN MY MIND- i can see my life turning/ you look and fall away this time/
i feel all is churning/ you are the answer in my mind/ my heart is yearning/
you search while others fill the time/ and now i am learning/ you are the answer in my mind/
now not that are all dreams/ since now best of that need/ i can see you in my dreams/
you are the one/ all i need/ vawoomp

APPLE ISLAND- there was a house inside the island/ only now it's just remains/
and still a story as we're digging/ shows of all of their lives pains/
and yet my heart is nearly broken/ you might find it's not the same/
it is the nature moving quickly as we march on this terrain/ and when you find you're not forgiven
and the trees are not quite sane/ it is the path that we have taken
that is only left to blame on Apple Island/ as the sky is shining brightly/
navigate this nature's tomb/ we're still amazed by the bright colors
that surround this clouded doom/ and as the boats approach the shoreline/
generations surging forth/ and all our notes are clearly captured as our class had done before
on Apple Island/

ARE YOU OKAY?- Look out it’s getting dark/ know you felt it from the start/ please don’t take it all away/ we need ourselves today/ I should be hurting but I’m not/ I’m just staring back in shock/ maybe this time we forgot/ Are you okay/ I face your way while I’m sleeping/ Just so I can hear you breathing/ Feel you near/ Face my fears/ I think that we forgot dear/ I face your way while I’m seething/ Know this night is worth repeating/ Hold you near/ Shed my tears/ Are you okay/ feel you near/ look out it’s getting cold/ found the depths within our souls/ threw the broken parts away/ all’s gone silent where we prayed/ and now it’s too late/ I should be hurting but I’m not/ I’m just staring back in shock/ maybe through this we forgot/ Are you okay/ You face my way/ While we’re sleeping/ Just so you can hear me breathing/ Feel you near/ Take my fears/ I need you in my heart dear/ I face your way while I’m seething/ Hope this nightis worth repeating/ Feel you near/ Shed my tears/ Are you okay/I can feel you near and I can hear you clear/I can feel you in my heart

A SECTION OF TIME– now I can see what lies ahead of me/ waiting for this time until/
all I wanted was fulfilled/ watch me closely I am dancing/ watch me slowly I am crying/
watch me closely I am screaming/ watch me slowly I am hiding/ I am here/ I am here/ I am here/
and now I wait to greet you/ you know I cannot call/ and though I cannot reach you/
the world still feels too small/ I feel your heartbeat next to me/ I am here/
now I can feel the time it took to heal/ and I wait as you come near/ for answers to be made clear/
watch me closely I am dancing/ watch me slowly I am crying/ watch me closely I am screaming/
watch me slowly I am hiding/ I am here/ I am here/ I am here/ I feel your heartbeat next to me/

AWAY– Why don’t you take me away/ come here take me from all your lies/ we’re living in your disguise for too long to compromise/ what’s next/ maybe we could have guessed/ there’s nothing more to expect since we’ve just revived from death/ you finally caughtthe wheel now/ and this momentum’s true/ Why don’t you take me away/ Our minds/ bodies/ hearts are churning away/ so here we face each other’s tells when we can’t take it ourselves/it’s all been knocked off the shelf/ wait here for the new big reveal/ know just what can’t be quite real/there’s no doubt in how I feel/ well you thought you were the center but for me it was our hearts/ can’t protect us from the storm ahead if you won’t make it start/ we were left exposed and longing for the crisis in the dark/ here alone face the past/ you finally caught the wheel now/from nowhere it found you

BOUNCING BABY CLONES– Deiner Sterben/ Deine Schuld/ Die Mauese sterben/ Fliegen in die Nacht/

THE CAFFEINE CYCLE- you caught me while flying by/ a pathway between the sky/
narrow line to travel by/ faster faster faster faster/ confused as I lost my guard/
never thought it’d be so hard/ emotions so often barred/ faster faster faster faster /
crawling falling down/ I moved towards that special place/ and walked through the open gate/
this time I just can’t escape/ faster faster faster faster/ I wait with the curtain down/
exposed from beneath my gown/ lights blurring from all around/ faster faster faster faster/
crawling up slow like we’re keeping our own time/ and the world is spinning faster
as I make the day mine/ all that’s racing has a new fate that can’t unwind while screaming/
faster faster faster faster/ help me understand how to keep up this new pace/
as I’m catching all that’s falling and reviving just in case it’s erased/
all the lightning falls in the same place while screaming/ faster faster faster faster/

CALLING- Guess who’s calling/ at night I still lie wide awake and hope that you don’t wake up/ with feelings forming in your head that you just have to make up/ why/ we have to try/ this morning I try not to break and hope you don’t take up/ remembering those conversations/ hoping that we’ll make it right/ after the night/ Falling from above/ Ashamed to be in love/ Mystery from above/ Afraid I might go blind/ A mask to hide my time/ Give me some time/ still we both lie wide awake/ afraid we’ll never wake up/ I don’t think there’s much more to take/ just standing here inside this dream/ you’re everything/ tomorrow maybe it won’t take so long for you to wake up/ remembering those sleepless nights and hoping that we’ll make it right/ after the night/ Leave it all behind/ Afraid of my own mind/ Give me some time/ how can I know what went wrong if I don’t know where I belong/ Calling from above/ Victory of the mind to occupy my time/ Give me a sign

CHIASM 5.0- can't you see I hold it deep inside/can't you feel the pain you caused in pride/
at the point of crossing over/I sacrificed all there was to be/so what does it mean to you now/
you ran away and kept the hate/avoid the truth escape the pain/repress the past inside your mind/
not the way you planned it to be/and I'm suffering made a huge mistake/you ask how I feel about you/
how can I deal without you/at least I'm alive like you wanted to be/alone like you wanted to be/
alive/the truth is all inside your mind

CHOSEN FATE- unborn I feed on you alone/ when will my soul become my own?/
soon I'll awake the world to see/ learning a false reality/ I'm left with no escape/
won't live with chosen fate/ existence is a fraud/ who says you should play God?/
the future is at stake/ a new life to awake/ a life of every wish/ perfection for the rich/
attempt to fight disease/ and put our souls at ease/ programmed lethality/ destroyed mortality/
I'm left with no escape/ won't live with chosen fate/ this time we are too late/
there's no time left to wait/ genetic engineer/ what could there be to fear?/ biotechnology/
our new theology/ created by our skill/ what happened to free will?/ specific role to fill/
still not allowed to kill/ the future is at stake/ a new life to awake/ I'm left with no escape/
won't live with chosen fate

COLD- the love I hold inside awaits/held back beyond these icy gates/
and he stares into the space/this will never fall in place/I could never be/
you wanted me to stay inside the world you locked away/the one you've tried to see/
but I won't hide from what could be/the future that was made for me/I don't want to be/
I held your hand to say we had to part this time today/anyone but me/
but now I have no one to hold/this shell I've made has left me cold/Deep inside it's cold/
deep inside it's old/I need you to agree this time it isn't me/and he stares into the space/
this will never fall in place

CRYOSTAT- crawl into the chamber/ smell the death/ eyes gray and brainless/
the smokey cold to fix you/ slice after precious slice i watch you fall apart/
i watch you fall apart/ breed and die/ breed and die/ frozen pieces flopping to cold steel/
your flesh melting on my hands/ discarded sections on glass/ i can see them dying/
crawling crawling crawling for life/ breed and die/ breed and die

DECEIVERS – I entered in your sacred place/ you wanted me to save your space/
I was a leader/ you didn’t see her/ and turned what’s good into your own disgrace/
then told me that I’d be all set/ and took it from me like a bet/ you are deceivers/
and I will take you down/ I will take you down/ I can take it/ you asked to see the other side/
are you surprised at what you find/ you had your hatred/ and couldn’t fake it/
didn’t it change at all what you decide/ you are the voices in my head/
the ones that make me think I’m dead/ you know that you could never say/
all that you had was ripped away/ and life is dead here in my head/
I’m left with nothing but this sense of dread/ so don’t go try to understand/
how nothing goes here quite as planned/ You said you live now without fear/
the world a haven should appear/ although I tried/ I felt denied/
your angry thoughts just made it all so clear/ so now I see you hold inside/
the secrets of your shallow pride/ it’s too convenient to pretend that your predictions never end/
let’s get it straight/ I’m not a fake/ it’s your omission left here to create/
so it should come as no surprise that it’s too late to compromise/
you are deceivers and I will take you down I will take you down I can take it/

DELAY-i thought there was a place/where stars shone bright with grace/
and rain fell slow to time/as wind dispersed its seed/and now I learn I can’t revive the past I’ve lost/
and I shall pay the cost/disuaded by the state that traps my mind in place/delay/there is always time/
but how much will i be calling mine today/i will search to find/a chance that else may only bring delay/
i’ll repeat the line/replace the marks insisting that I stay/towards the sun that blinds my way/
delay/ i can see now you’re lost inside the trap that holds you down/the safety of your net
creates a yearning to regress/on back receding towards a tiny place that holds you close/
to feel the dark it makes within your yearning to embrace/the fear that grows inside keeps churning every day/
as the world surrounds and moves to block your way/and now you’re holding back the things that you regret/
but reaching towards the sky brings more than you could bet

DENY – who feels you now/ who sees you now/ who breathes you now/
who sees you now/ I see you/ you want to change place/ I can find it for you/ you want to keep pace/
I can wind it for you/ you want to find taste/ I can get it for you/ you want to save waste/
I can rid it for you/ who do you think you are/ I see you here/ it’s all so clear/ before me now/
transformed somehow/ I can’t control what I’ve been told/ I can’t erase your empty face/
I’m all alone and on my own/ forgetting what creates a rut/ now done to make the past a fake/
what put me here is guilt and fear/ you can’t deny the things you try/ in every place I see your face/
continue on until I’m gone/ enough control to fill the role/ it takes me in deserving sin/ no better now/
lay down somehow/ so take it back or wish attack/ now see it clear and have it here/

DISORDER- time enters space/now is erased/drugs rape the mind/kills all you find/
in a world of disorder i lie awake/knowing there's nothing i can do/in a world of disorder i lie awake/
knowing there's something i can do/take what you love/prey from above/cry as you heal/smile as they kneel/
in a world of disorder i lie awake/ knowing there's nothing i can do/in a world of disorder i lie awake/
knowing there's something i can do/run from the fate/curse as they wait/fly as you're still/
play at your will

DON'T PANIC- i don't want to see/i don't want to be all that you intend for me/
no i don't/ yes i will/ i don't want to be/ i don't want to see all that you intend for me/
no i don't/ yes i will/ don't you panic/ don't you panic

DRAW A HOUSE- i arrived at your door/ never stood quite there before/ it opened and without a word/
you showed me what i'd never heard/ all was racing in my mind/ overwhelmed by what i'd find/
you'd been waiting all this time/ for happenstance to change mankind/ draw a house for me/
built for all the world to see/ and the joy you have within will come out/ i can hardly wait/
show your world to me/ colored with the thoughts you see/ and the joy you have within will come out/
i can hardly wait/ pictures on the wall/ pictures on the floor/ pictures in my mind/
leave your pictures at the door/ tearing in my mind/ tearing down the walls/ tearing down the moonbeams
bending as they fall/ all you gave is with me now/ i can see that what you said/ left me here back in my bed/
there's a world you cannot find/ makes a picture in my mind/ there's such chaos left inside/
i plant the flowers here to hide/ the guilt that grows within your pride/ trees that bend as they do cry

EMBRYONIC-what is the pain/you’ll never feel/what is the life/i’ll never heal/
i took that from you/sacrifice to know what grows inside/destroyed by me/incubated/
the life that’s born to die/i can feel it moving inside/the life is washed away/
sterile and incubated/in death the life will pay/i took that from you/i took that from you/
i will create you/i will create you/ the life that’s born to die

ENEMY- close your eyes and take me in/the way you know is soon to change/
alive inside the species grows/the silent fate/will dominate/you are your own enemy/
creative evolution/i can see it in your eyes/the way you hold the pain inside your mind/
the hate you hold inside controls your mind/i see/you are your own enemy/genetic revolution

ENOUGH- It was so justified that I could hardly wait/
Enough to find I’m lost in a world that somehow I can’t face/
And I want to go unless you find another place and time I see/
But somehow I can’t let it be a place that’s meant for me/
Unless you find a way to catch these thoughts inside of me/
It was so justified/ a world lost inside of me you’ll see/ Is it enough?/
I took it all inside and worked at my own pace/
Enough to find that my whole life was simply out of place/
And it all unfolds awake this time it took me all the way I see/
Above the trees for a future need a path that’s there to be/
Unless you find a way to catch these thoughts inside of me/
I’m lost in this world that I can hardly face/ It was so justified/
a world lost inside of me you’ll see/ Is it enough?

ELLA- ELLA/ Where did we go?/ ELLA/ What did we show?/
Help me follow your past/ Help me learn what to ask/ What did we show?/
Leave it behind/ It’s you that we must find

EXTINGUISH - this cannot take me over/ can’t let my world dissolve/
I will not let it have me/ there’s too much to resolve/ my voice may be rejected/
I may not hear your call/ I cannot live without you/ can’t find myself at all/ sometime it will release me/
I’ll find another state/ the pressure is increasing/ I feel it as of late/ I will not let it have me/
can’t let my world dissolve/ this cannot take me over/ there’s too much to resolve/
and my soul can hardly wait/ this time I see so much at stake/ and my soul can hardly wait this time
this time this time/

FAKE SMILE- why can't you ever see/ how you abandon me/ even there at my side/ intentions open wide/
du hast keine leibe fuer mich/ ich weiss/ was willst du hier?/ i needed more than you could hide/
your smile makes truth and lies collide/ you wanted me to burn inside/ the love i had for you has died/
the pain i hold awaits/ makes all my insides ache/ to go along i tried/ i laughed when should have cried/

FIGHT- what do you want from me/what do you plan tonight/
can you see what i can't see/will you put up with the fight/i will remain alone this time/
until i know for sure what's mine/why can't you face the truth/why must you run and hide/
your ego's killing you/i hate your stupid lies/i can't believe what you've done now/
the faith we had can't explain how/your selfish games and cruelty/somehow always comeback to me/
i will remain alone this time until i know for sure what's mine

FORMULA-  kick/snare/kick/release me/no peace/the clones they want to be/
you'll never find in me/they yearn to be the same/ how could they be so plain/
they wanted love too much/ come here and beg to touch/ I'll hold onto the truth/ and grasp onto my youth/
repeated jealous phobia/ I know it's just a formula/ what is normal?/what everyone else is
and you are not/what is normal?/what everyone else is and you are not/when will there be something rare/
you know someone has got to care/all that lingers everywhere is never-ending kick/snare/kick/snare/
insert sample here/ i'll never be the same/ i'm left with what remains/of what they thought was lost/
i'll have to bear the cost/for years i tried to do/all that could not be true/
i'll have to learn to be/what lurks inside of me/the way you once were with me then/
reminded me you were a friend/and now that we've remained apart/i've found another's broken heart/
alone i've cried and felt the pain/we'll have through life again, again/
but love will heal our souls at last/and let us live without the past/repeated jealous phobia/
i know it's just a formula

FRANTIC- Now the cable’s tripped/ the numbers split/ do we exist/ there is no telling/ the switches flipped/ the keys resist/ no time for this/ the clock is flying/ there’s nothing clear/ you’ll see/ you’ll hear/ would you come here/ I am done yelling/ I’m seeing red/ it stirs my head/ want peace instead/ I can’t stop trying/ My mind out of control/ I am a frantic soul/I can’t say it feels like heaven/ Machines thrown off of the bridge/ This isn’t how I live/ I can’t say it feels like heaven/ we climbed too high/ it broke our lives/ connection cries/ ‘cause it’s not working/ underneath we’re in the deep and nothing speaks/ the ports are broken/ I touch the keys/ protect my needs/ illusion breeds/ the stories telling/ on my phone/ not what I’ve known/ the panic’s grown/ the mouths have spoken/ out of control/ the panic takes me home/ it’s darker than I’ve known/ thrown right off the bridge

GONE- It’s been a while since I’ve been outside/ the colors fading used to be so bright/ the sky is covered/ used to feel alright/ the shadows wrong/ where have we gone/ What did you think that day/ When words were hard to say/ Gone is the truth from us/ Gone is the pain we trust/ take me outside/ it’s been a while since I’ve been outside/ my life is changing/ there used to be some light/ my thoughts discovered/ used to be alright/ the shadows gone/ it’s just all too wrong/ used to be some light/it’s gone/ used to feel alright/ it’s gone/ used to be alright/ it’s gone

HELLO- hello/ i'm stationed once again/ a journey boundless/ beyond the tracks I reach/ to find me here/
what is this place?/ hello/ the ground beneath me rumbles as the day proceeds/
a plan without a warning taking place/ at every stop ahead/ hello/ walking aimless/ motors rushing past
I let them by/ an ocean moving in this thought of mine exists/ hello/ a boat that's static /
anchored holding all in place/ invisible to all that sees inside/ before the tide resists/ hello/
I take my entrance waiting/ inconsistent dream/ naive to tensions 'round me/ all this time I thought I'd find it here/
hello/ sinking rushing past / a twig floats static/ the sky travels by behind the sun/ a cloud seeks movement high/
and I am angered/ and i am anchored/ and I am angered/ and I am angered/ hello/ i'm stationed once again/
a journey reckless/ beyond the tracks i reach to find me here/ what is this place?/ hello/
my life beneath me crumbles as the day proceeds/ a plan without a story taking place/ at every risk ahead/
as I look down/ heaven onward seeking/ all its meaning lost/ disheveled freedom/ mercy without cost/
and I am angered

HELP ME- i took you under and dried the fears that hurt you/ you stole my thunder
and ride the storm that breaks you/ and now you've changed me/ i can't stand what you've made me/ help me/
i can't take anymore/ you said save me/ i'm buried under the floor/ now just tease me/
you'll never go through with this/ or just please me/ and toss me in the abyss/you pulled me under/
you took me down i saved you/ you tore me down i played you/ you wore a frown i made you/
what have i done to hide you from my fears/ what've i become to hide you from my tears/ i came around/
you stayed inside/ then tore me down and took my pride/i had it all/ you took my side/ and now you're gone/
you ran and lied/ you took me down i saved you/ you wore a crown i gave you/ you tore me down i played you/
you wore a frown i made you

HIDEAWAY- i know now/ we need to find somehow/ a simple place for us to hide away/
in the night i hear a noise in the fight/ that leads me here again searching today/ and i can't throw it away/
my hideaway/ i can see the lies that you portray/ i can see them hide from you anyway

IMAGES- images as the bodies burn/seen through my eyes/please don't make me visualize your pain/
images and the sounds of war/seen through my eyes/ images of rape and gore/seen through my eyes/
images of a shadowed world/please help my god/images of the bombs they hurl/please help my god/
please don't make me visualize your pain/i've seen too much/images/they rip they rip my life/images/
my god/victory/images as the bodies burn/seen through my eyes/images and my life has turned/
seen through my eyes/images of the guns ahead/please help my god/images and the vermacht's dead/
please help my god/i'll never heal their pain/we fight to find our way/pretend there's much to gain/
and lead the world astray/in darkness i am told not to speak/just to move/just to march/just remember/
he's the leader/he's a good man/just remember not to die/victory/i'll never heal their pain/
we fight to find our way/pretend there's much to gain/and lead the world astray/we cannot heal their pain/
we fight to find the way/to make it through this game/ and lead the world astray

INCISION-You cut right into me/i didn’t think you’d leave yourself to see/
and now we’ll never know/ the lessons you had wanted us to show/i never did remind you/
the things that you had felt I can’t recall/and I won’t find you/your selfish need for freedom made you fall/
and now you’re free/will always be/it’s hard to see/i cannot see your face/
behind the tracks you claim to have erased/and since your place is gone/i cannot feel where you and I belong/
i knelt to find you/but couldn’t help but hear you tell me not/to reach behind you/
and taste the fear that lead us to your plot/and now I can’t remind you/
that more existed than you claimed to be/and I won’t find you/your selfish need for justice made you free/
you cut right into me/i didn’t think you’d leave yourself to see/
and now we’ll never know/the lessons you had wanted us to show/and now you’re free/
will always be/it’s hard to see/and now you’re free/will always be

INCUBATE- lies that you created/ for too long inside they incubated/
overgrown and overworked and overzealous gone berserk/ this time that we have wasted/
special made like wine that we had tasted/ never ripe and never good your purpose so misunderstood/
this time/ is mine/ grown to be inside me/ will it leave or will it breed/ this hate that we’ve uncovered/
every path is leading to another/ built inside as anger cried and can’t forget that people died/
still blind to human faces/ sympathy cools fast with random traces/ constant brewing racing back
and multiplied we fear attack/ this time/ is mine/ darkened greed an empty seed/
still indeed we’ve all been freed/ this case/ constant state forever/ daily task in numbness we persevere/
yet to teach a way to reach yet with remorse we stay the course/ and charge as once conflicted/
must persist and yet we are restricted/ once again enough to send a voice to choose as anger brews/
this time/ falling back/ risk attack/ all is hate/ make us wait/ recreate/ incubate/ overworked/
gone berserk/ all is waste/ had a taste/ never good/ understood/ anger brews/ time to choose/ recreate/ incubate

INSIDE-Inside your body aches/haunted by a burning past/you can't let go of all you hate/
Destroys your will to live/hide behind a painted mask/afraid your past controls your fate,/
You've been told don't look inside/You've been warned don't look inside me/Outside are looks that kill/
she's a complicated boy/Repress inside the pains that weep/Take all I have to give/
Treat me as a plastic toy/But never think i'm yours to keep/You've been told don't look inside/
you've been warned don't look inside me/you wonder why you turn away/but i can see what's gone astray/
inside your deep anger awaits/i keep it down while your heart breaks/i can't deny what's in the past/
but you refuse to make it last/ and though your mind is born anew/it's painful holding to what's true

INTERTWINED- I still dreamyou’re spilling your heart to me/ spiraling/ shifting to ecstasy/ tears of green ‘cause I know what you’ve seen/ intertwined/ we’ll find it all in time/ I’m still falling/ Yeah we’re intertwined/ We’re still crawling/ Twisting us intertwined/I’m still spinning/ Finding us intertwined/ We’re still hurting/ Yeah we’re intertwined/ still afraid I can’t handle what we’ve made/ floating by/my tears have all run dry/ what we’ll find/ it’s signaling in my mind/ urgently I find you right next to me/I cry hoping I won’t be questioned why/ still I cry knowing that you know why/Hoping the world to find/ I’m still hiding/ Knowing we’re intertwined/ We’re still fighting/ Twisting you from my mind/ You know we’re intertwined/ Are we winning/ I cry knowing you won’t be questioned why

ISOLATED- isolated /alone apart /i'll never crawl again/ i'll never fall again /until i'm free /
here i stand in this room /caged and trapped inside /seems i'm damned to live a lie /
unaware of what's outside /should i care /for what's left me behind /and i stare at light that makes me blind /
internally there's nothing left for me to be /i'm here alone /and isolated /have no choice but be isolated /
struggling left alone apart /pushed aside made segregated/ struggling left alone apart /
see i have no choice but be isolated /threatened forced to extract the heart /
pushed aside made segregated /have no choice but be isolated /the monsters make me hide /
perhaps i'll eat myself alive /internally what is there left for me to be /i can't care for what's left me behind /
and stare at light that makes me blind /these broken walls trap me inside /i'm isolated /
have no choice but be isolated /struggling left alone apart /pushed aside made segregated /
threatened forced to extract the heart /i'll never crawl again /i'll never fall again /until i'm free /
and I stare at light that makes me blind /internally there's nothing left for me to be /
i'm here alone and isolated

I WANT SOME MORE- i want some more/ i want some more/ i want action/
passion/ give me your reaction/ do you want some more/ listen to me/ it's not over yet/
it's meant to be/ i won't let you forget

KNOCKING- I’ve had to shut you out/ ’cause I can’t take the doubt that it makes in me/ you’ve made it such a dream/ I can’t believe my eyes/ it makes me scream/ I’ve had to spill it out/ ‘cause I can’t take this bout of intensity/ it’s done so much to me/ I can’t believe this vibe thatit’s built in me/ You’re out with someone (headed somewhere) else/ Was I just chased away/ I still find myself wanting to stay/ You knew I’d run away just like I did before/ I still find myself knocking on doors/ I’ve had to take you in/ because of where we’ve been/ we’re such a team/ I can’t believe it’s real/ It’s become so surreal where you’ve taken me/I’ve had to readjustthis emptiness of trust/ need to believe/ did we just find our place/ I think I found the trace that you left for me

LIQUEFY- motionless in time my instincts are a crime/
eventually he'll see it's swirling into me/the air surrounds my mind/ i'm swimming through the sky/
please liquefy my need/ i cannot learn to breathe/can't keep pretending not to hate/
just take me down and shred my fate/this time you've got me bound and tied/ my turn is up, your time to hide/
these anxious ties restraining me/forgive me now i must go free/ i'll liquefy your needs/
you will not learn to breathe/there's no escaping now you see/'cause time is suffocating me/
i cannot learn to breathe/eventually  i'll break away/control the gnawing urge to stay/
forgive me now i must go free/i cannot learn to breathe

LOCKED IN- The world above begins to fade/ and cancels all the debts we’ve paid/
The earth below melts all away and nothing for us here today/
A frozen time awaits ahead/ This path lures us to the dread/
The stories here inside my head are waiting to be solved instead/
Feel the embrace our lives erased stock up in case we’re all replaced/
Fear what’s ahead unending dread we’re all still here so hide your fear

MAKE BELIEVE - If I could see the world the way you always do/ I might see through the hurt inside/
I feel when pride takes over you/ If I could make believe life revolved around me/
Then all would be so very fine/ We'd face a victory every time/ I see your face again/ I've found my place again
I can feel it

MICE ON A WHEEL - Mice on a wheel with nothing left to feel/ Mice still on a wheel with nothing left to feel/ Watching waiting/
Biding our time/ Watching playing/ Games with our minds/ It's evil mad libs/ Words from our minds/
Games with our lives/ Solitude Patterns Neurogenesis Intensity Yellow Goo Pride Heavens Clouds Ball Lightning
Adolescence Decrepitude Beauty Andromeda Faith Disasterously Lavender Erinyes Eris Promiscuity Gold

MISSED- I’m walking towards you to this day/ it’s urgent now, won’t go away/ I know I’ve taken all my time/ I think you’ve strangled my sweet mind/ I’m walking towards you to this day/ The window’s broken and winter’s here/ I won’t let this cold control my fears/ I hear that you’ve been near/ held together/feared forever/ Driving blindly/ We’re apart/ Watch us suffer for the art/ Replaced in this dark space/ Dancing wildly at the start/ Missed the struggle/ Missed our part/ Embrace this new pace/ the window’s broken and we’re still here/ won’t let the chaos control my fears/ it’s true/ so where were you/ we picked up the pieces for a moment or two/ treasure while we got it for we know it’s through/ it’s true/ there’s a time and place for everything and you were right I have been near/ held together/ feared forever/ I’m walking towards you to this day/ It’s urgent now/ won’t go away/ I should have taken my sweet time/ to help untangle my cold mind/ I know I’ve taken all my time/ so you can handle my sweet mind

NEEDLE (a.k.a. “Injection”)-Now the names are chosen/and the cage is open/push the needle right through/
soon i’ll be without you/don’t know how I will feel inside/every day I can see it lie/
holding back the pain waiting ready to die/hold the subject down/slide the needle in place/
i can feel it inside/shows across my face/every day I can see it lie holding back the pain waiting ready to die/
go to sleep sweet angel/let me wipe the pain away/let the drug control you/just relax and close your eyes/
every day I can see it lie holding back the pain waiting ready to die

NOISE – I’m at the board with you/ soon we’ll release our truth/ circles right before usin one giant chorus/screaming through our toys/ reaching for the noise/ sound is pushing me through/ I hear it in my head too/ living to create the torture we escape/ aiming for the noise before we’re destroyed/ Don’t forget to sleep/ Don’t forget to breathe/ Finding that need for noise before we’re destroyed/ Tracking every beat/ Brains are on repeat/ Finding that love of noise before we’re destroyed/ I’m in the screen with you/ knowing we’ll make truth/ waving fingers for us/ dancing giant chorus/ I’m in the mood with you/ did you feel that too/ lights are shining towards us/ in the darkness for us/ in the noise where we sleep/ our brains run on repeat/ when the fight gets lonely/ where we breathe/ in the noise every beat will save us from defeat/ find we’re moving slowly/ I’m on the floor with you/ dancing alone with you/ it’s all right before us/ in one giant chorus/ screaming through the noise/ where we sleep when the fight gets lonely

OBLIGATORY 2.0- love/ i can never feel again/ love you used to fall away too much/
now love i hope you're here to stay/ and now i see/ all that's lost is meant to be/
there is nothing left but me and you to find all that was still in my mind because now/
i can never feel again/ the way you did that day/ and at morning i will wake to find the truth is severed/
dirt in precious stones/ see through them like my bones in severe weather/ because i can't face the thought/
it might be gone forever/ love i know you like to play and us now love/ i'm trying hard to make it stay/
but now i see/ all that was is meant to be/ there is nothing left but me and you
to find all that was still in my mind/ it is now

PETALS- seek the night and someday you will find/ walls are full of petals in my mind/
i cannot throw the flowers away/ so on the walls they hang/ their leaves surrounding me/
silently they speak/ my world is overwhelming/ all is waking me from sleep/
and moments left are telling me to peek/ at all the colors left behind/

PHOBIC- you see inside/you see inside/you read my mind/you read my mind/you survived a hellish dream/
now the light can mend the seams/ but your will wraps tight around/ watch the sky come crashing down/
you breathe/ believe/ you touch/ won't face I need you so much/ embrace/ encase/ I fear/
your love for me is so clear/ a love that's so defined/ you'll never wake the newness that can be/
a happiness so kind/ mistaken for seductive falsity/ just knowing that you're mine/
erases all reverse complexity/ the emptiness unwinds an unexpected flexibility/ I arrived on foreign land/
with no one to hold my hand/ but my guide came shining through/ from the fog alone stood you/
came shining through/ alone stood you

PIECES- I'm lying in fields of shining black and white/
With sprigs of green below me holding me there tight/
You found me in pieces/ Here I mourn for all that never was/
Shreds of heartache can’t be sewn again/ So here are all my thoughts surrounding/
Come take all the fears corrupting me/ I’m feeling that it’s tearing me again/
You found me in pieces/ Here are all the things that stay with me/
Put together wouldn’t be the same/ So here I cry for all that’s sacred/
Here I’ve lost all that was part of me/ I can’t respond to bear it all again/
Now I stare at shadows hanging from the sky/ And to its beauty I can’t answer why/
The world surrounding me still just feels so small/ As the truth consumes me I can’t hear at all/
I’m all alone and scattered here while buried loudly praying for a sound/
You found me in pieces/ Never be the same/ All the things I had/
All that was a part of me/ Can’t be sewn again/
I’m all alone/ It’s too long to wait for now/ I can’t control/
All that’s hurting me somehow/ I try to break the ground/ Make some kind of sound/
Healed together someday whole again/

PREFRONTAL- Eispickel in dein Hirn/Steck Ihn rein/Ich kann hoeren wie es zerreiBt/
Fleisch reiBt so schnell/Mach dein Leben eine sueBe gluckliche Stille/Oeffne deine Augen und du wirst sehen/
Es wird bald vorbei sein/Wirst nichts fuehlen/Weil heir drinn keine Schmerzreceptoren sind/ Icepick in your brain/
Stick it in/I can hear it ripping/Flesh tears so quick/Make your life a sweet happy silence/
Open up your eyes and you'll see/Soon it will be over/Won't feel a thing/'Cause inside there's no pain receptors/
You can't change my mind/ You can't make me heal/You can't make me happy/I want to feel what's real/
They tell me to erase these feelings I embrace/They hide inside my mind/I hear them speak inside of me/
You can't make me change my mind

REFORM - Something learned/ and now concerned/ all is different now somehow/ rearranged/ we face the change/
stumbling towards but never found/ always forwards never back/ crouch and wait for the attack/
one by one we overcome/ as we learn we’ve just begun/ only distance waits now/ put it in its place now/
always feeling like I’m falling down/ there’s got to be another way/ I lose control and cannot stay/
there’s got to be some kind of change/ I can’t relate/ must rearrange/ missing in its absent state/
one point left to recreate/ start from scratch and now rebuild/ ‘til the emptiness is filled/

RELIANCE- i am the one you must depend on/ you need to find a plan to fall on/
i provide what nails you to the ground/ how can i trust you after what i've found/ through pity and ridiculous love/
rip me apart/ 'till i can't handle being so disintegrated/ disintegrated/ destroyed and crushed/
i've made you my own through pity and ridiculous love/ you tore my soul apart/ i knew right from the start/
an empty heart/ a body full of hate/ you left me in this state/ i can't relate/ with nothing left to lose/
you anger and confuse/ relent/ abuse/ i'm deep inside it now/ you left without a vow/ i'll show you how/
through pity and ridiculous love/ this time we fall apart/ this time we fall apart

REWIND-a time of changing has begun/the leaves are fallen and undone/inside your spirit starts to run/
and all my fears are overcome/i feel the time has come and that it’s for real/i see the future turn inside of me/
i find i’m ready to rewind/and erase the pain that’s haunted me in time/i watch the days as they fly by/
the turmoil ceases to subside/beyond the shadows freedoms hide/and now the chances have arrived/
i can’t escape/this feeling that my world’s about to break/and I can’t wait
for all that’s built inside to finally wake/ this time I know that what’s ahead will likely overflow/
although my fear is bound to grow/as time will show/i can’t escape the knowledge that my world is full of hate/
i can’t resist the urge to seek out all that might exist/as I tread on the world may think i’m gone/
and erase the pain that’s traced what I’ve become/it’s all undone

RED OUTSIDE- It's red outside today/ the world is dancing towards me in the shade/
As if I'd never seen the light/ How can I think we'll be alright/
I can't evade the truth that all of us have made/
it's a parade of marching cost through this new frost/
Feel the thunder tearing through our veins/
A day to carry on without thinking this world will pull me under/
feel the thunder tearing through our veins/ emotionless with pain/
it's just the same/ a terror here unfolds/
just like the story told of lies we've buried so far under/
Feel the thunder tearing through our veins/emotionless from pain x3/

SKY CRANE- Hovers in the sky/ It slowly says goodbye/
Brave and bold it keeps its hold until the work is done/
Tell me it’s true/ When you’re alone/
Inside your head/ Without your throne/ Tell me it’s true/
I was alone/ I was afraid/ I was not home/
I knew you too

SOMEONE- i see you/and i know what to feel inside/for the first time/
and i know/what i need i have/by myself/i am someone/so stop me/so stop me/
so stop me from taking you/so stop me from loving you/ i have all i need by myself/for the first time/
i see you/and i know/what to feel/what i need i have by myself/by myself i am someone/so stop me from loving you/
so stop me from wanting you/ i have all i need by myself/
i am someone/i am someone/all i need i have by myself/i have all i need/
so stop me from taking you/so stop me from loving you/i have all i need by myself/
and i could never feel this way again/you'll never take the pain the way i did/i'll never be the same again/
i couldn't be what i'd always wanted/i am someone

SO LOST- so lost inside/ carried you down the stairs/ though you weren't really there/
or self-aware/ it always breaks apart as soon as there's a start/ to mend your heart/ this gruesome circumstance/
destroys what creates chance/ another glance/ what makes us fall apart in love/ so lost inside/
i waited there outside/ without a sense of pride/ no place to hide/ no sense of self-control/
i had nowhere to go/ so i was told/ no reason to defend someone i found a friend/ i can't pretend/
it makes us fall apart in love

SOULPRINT - all that I’m becoming I really can’t control/
burdened by our bodies/trapping of our souls/ I hope you can forgive me/
since guilt I know too well/ confronted with existence/ this feels like I’m in hell/
you can’t change what’s happened now/ you can’t explain to me how/ it must mean something somehow/
you can’t take this all away/ you can’t make it yesterday/ everything seems broken anyway/
this isn’t fair/ who decides if a miracle survives/ so close to start/ so careful been/
I cannot go through this again/ determined before all was known/ whether perseverance shown/
trembling as I think ahead/ I wish I had some strength instead/ you can’t help me to forget/
you can’t hide from my regret/ it hasn’t happened all yet/ you can’t make me change my mind/
I am not the simple kind/ this must mean something sometime/ all this time I’ve waited/
played on by the rules/ everything is wasted/ leaving us as fools/ how can this be alright/
how can this be fair/ coded by perception/ leaving us despair/

SPACE- no point in standing in the cold/ machine just slides across the road/
there are no ears left to listen/ this morning leaves no light to trace/ i am lost in this place/
because you will only see what you want to/ i am here/ falling in space/ there is no sound/
i scream but no one hears me/ no point in standing in the cold/ a dream just slides across the road/
i stop to look but no one sees me/ this morning leaves no light to trace

SPACE LIGHTS - The lights on the ceiling change/ Is this still my home?/
My thoughts too full/ My space rearranged/
I turn off my phone/ Can’t take the outside/ Noise in my brain/
It’s just not the same/ Head towards the lights/
They’re there to guide you through the night/
Head towards the lights/ By morning it will be alright/
My thoughts are a dreamlike strange/ Am I still alone?/
I feel a pull/ Am I just deranged?/
Can’t take the unknown/ I try not to cry/
I might be insane/ I still know my name/ It’s okay to feel that you’re in love/
It’s okay to see what lies above/ Go find the sky try not to hide/
Go find the sky try not to cry/ It’s okay to feel that you’re in love/
Go find the sky/
And now I still feel your pain/ Was I ever yours?/
My youth annulled/ was this all a game?/
Should I just have known/ to hold it inside/
I won’t take the blame for what was your gain/ Go find the sky

STILL-Still I can hear your voice/still I await the choice to find/your peace of mind/still i awake so cold/
still hear your breath unfold/your hand on solid land/lost I await your call/lost I can hear you fall/
the same cold misty rain/here I am found at last/here I’ll forget the past/and find what’s truly mine/
i can hear your conscience dancing/i can feel the fear unfold/i can see the tension grasping/
now I know the still you hold/now I know the still you hold/ i can still hear you/i can still feel you/
you left a mark that will not ever change/now that I will find your peace of mind/your path awaits me/
i can’t erase the/unending touch that makes my breath unfold/i’ll be here until you break the still/
i’ll be here until you break the still

STUMBLE - I’d like (want) to say that I am still alive/
something is happening inside/ and I just cannot hide/ u-huh/
something is happening inside/ that I just can’t describe/ u-huh/
You’d like to see that my world’s falling down/ a party happening inside/
as your world crashes down/ You’d like to see

SURRENDER-I lie alone/the fog surrounds me and I know that it’s not right/i must escape this awful state of night/
so here I tread/and standing still without a phase of sight to dread/the noise completes the pictures in my head/
you learn you must surrender/it’s taken time for you to realize/that what you felt is not forever/
you find you must surrender/and now you see the world with no disguise/and face the truth of now and never/
the rain pours down on me/ the clarity i sought would make us free/but in the depths of fate/
the answers drowned beneath this mud of hate/i gasp to breathe the cause/that brought us to this place yet here we pause/
and in the fear of dawn/the innocence I dreamt about is gone

THE LIGHT THAT BURNS - No matter who you are/ there shines a fading star/ waiting to burn in your eyes/
just when the world has gone astray/ a burning light will show the way/ you learn that every step you take/
provides the knowledge to awake/ with every step you take/ there is a world that breaks/
waiting to burn in your eyes/ arrive the hope that leads our minds/ awake the silence from what binds/
no longer will the pain resist/ the truth we understand exists

THE PUZZLE – Love fades away/ love/ it just wouldn’t stay/
between all the struggles/ there is a puzzle that’s still here today/
Love fades away/ love/ it just wouldn’t stay/ between all the struggles/
there is a puzzle that’s still here today/ I’d like to feel the sun/
I’d like to find someone/ My search has just begun/ To help me feel the sun/
I can hardly see/ shielded by my heart again/ how this came to be/
never traced the path from over there/ I dare to find/
radadumdumdum radadumdumdum/
here forever/ here forever/ we’ll find a way

THE SEA- to the sea/ i am falling/ endlessly/ i am calling/ water floods and up the stairs now/
out the door with all we had/ lay before us dust uncovered/ fear of clean and left behind/
somehow change that lies before me/ creates a new valid kind/ i'm left staring at the figures and forever ponder why/
yet i've never quite adapted to a world i cannot find/ oceans swirl and foot boards tremble as the memories unwind/
nature tells me yet again that it wasn't meant to be/ and how can i overcome all that has afflicted me/
try and try and try again/ just as if i don't believe/ as a whole it's all still there/ right for everyone to see/
just so how will i recover from the numbers that still bind/ just another movement forward/
and another change of time/ and though others may have known it/ yes and others feel it too/
just still know that i am here now/ and it isn't only you/ yeah well there is still a number
that still haunts me yet today/ and the others were so close it was barely yesterday/
i'm still searching for the magic that will turn it all around/ in a second comes the danger
that made all my fear abound/ yet the first was still the only number one of it's own time/
and each moment was a story/ every figure in my mind/ hoping someday i will breathe from the same air
i seek to find/ still repeating the same lessons/ still absorbing in my mind

TRANSPARENT- i feel so out of place/i cannot show my face/how could it be/
there's anyone like me/ they leave me far behind/
i think they must be blind/no one can see/it's like they stare through me/how can you treat the world this way/
watch others suffer while you play/you stare with pure insanity/you missed what's really inside me/
i pass into the other side/where there is nothing left to hide/and i can roam and wander free/
i think i found eternity

TSO MUS- i stepped away from you in shadows as my name was screamed behind/
the pain i felt for you that followed took longer than my time/ letting go/ i just can't fall/
it all drifts back to me the more i run the more it finds me as its chains slither behind/ letting go/
bricks beneath me shattered/ water splashed aside/ now all that's left is silence/ all that's left is right/
all that's in my mind/ the best thing that i've done has hurt me/ i remember more this time/
the panic seized me in its flight/ tied me down 'till i surrendered/ walked me through towards the light/
i just can't fall/ it all drifts back to me the more i run the more it finds me as its chains slither behind/
letting go/ bricks beneath me shattered/ water splashed aside/ now all that's left is silence/
all that's left is right/ all that's in my mind/ letting go/ i just can't fall/ letting go

UNITY- remember your demise/ you want the world to hate you/ and now you’ve found your prize/
you know I can’t escape you/ together we are drifting/ together we will fall/ together we’re resisting/
together hear our call/ protect my greatest fears/ that somehow I’ll become you/
it’s taken all these years/ to get my distance from you/ we found there’s no disguise/
there had to be a takedown/ and after all these lies/ it all creates a breakdown/ I sit within the nature/
dirt between my toes/ the forest is my shelter/ the lake ahead still flows/
unite become erase ignite survive renew replace revise the thoughts inside you/ create I know you tried to/
decide review restart resist your fears/ rebuild your heart/ prevent the ties that bind you/
and come back from your breakdown/ specks of light and darkness/ bodies to be held/ people to be trusted/
anchors left to weld/

WANTED- Don’t tie my tongue/ I won’t be healed/ I’ve got too much here to be revealed/ don’t look away/ I feel betrayed ‘cause all I want isto not be pushed away/ I watch the dots float by/ Wait for words before my eyes/ No more haunting of our lives/ It’s what you wanted/ Now we’re lined up for the pain/ Just got lost in pouring rain/ Sure you’ll find I’m not the same/ It’s what you wanted/ you’re on the screen staring back at me/ what does it mean/ you’re unlike I’ve ever seen/ we lost the track of our well planned attack/ it burst to flames/ now we’ll never be the same/ you told me how you thought we’d win/ that’s where I feel we must begin/ Now I watch the dots float by/ Say good morning to screen light/ It’s still time to say good night/ It’s what you wanted/ Now we’re lined up for the pain/ Just got lost in pouring rain/ Sure you’ll find I’m not the same/It’s what you wanted

WON- as I walk amongst the shadows/ and reflect on what I’ve done/ all I see ahead is anger/
and I know what I’ve become/ in the end who all has suffered/ in the end what have we done/
in the end who all’s gone crazy/ in the end who all has won?/ will you cry when you have won/
will you scream when you have won/ in the end we’ve just begun/ will you show what you’ve become/
what’s inside when you have won/ what has changed when you have won/ in the end we’ve just begun/
will you show what you’ve become/ your life to me feels far away/ I cannot explain why/
there’s too much to say/ but you’re here for now and so am I/ the past is erased now so let’s give a try/
in life you’ll find a way/ with help you’ll find a way/ in life you’ll learn to stay/
somehow you’ll find a way/ As I walk amongst the shadows/ think of what is yet to come/
all the answers become clouded/ all the images rerun/ in the end who all has suffered/
In the end what have we done/ in the end who all’s gone crazy/ dear god, what have we done?/
as I walk amongst the shadows/ and reflect on what I’ve done/ all I see ahead is anger/
and I know what I’ve become

WORLD LEFT - If I could find a world left to believe in/ would you be my world left to believe in?/
If I could face the world today/ Maybe I’d go out to play/ I’d frolic in this land of gray/
Holding my mind closely/ Maybe I’ll wake up one day/ Have something absurd to say/ Ever clear and ever brave/
Sharing my thoughts closely

X-RAY-What’s inside me? A part of me awakes/to light that shines against the knowledge that we break/
and as you tear it down/i see the truth that binds your answer’s frown/what’s inside me?/
i see what you can’t find/i see what’s inside me/what’s inside me?/what you can’t find/
i see you walk away/i cannot share the fate that I have seen/I know that what’s to come is not so far away/
and love is seen beyond the answers laid in front of me/another way to see the path that leads me in my dreams/
and here I wake to be embraced by love inside/now I cannot hide/now I cannot hide/you’ve grasped until you breached/
all the light is gone/and waked before the night had dawned/ponder my mind alone/
now I can see beyond your throne

YOURS- Am I yours?/ don’t wanna leave you/ for the show can I believe you/ I don’t want to just deceive you/ soon you’ll know to scream like we do/ I’m never stopping/ I’m saying I’m here I’m yours/ Par for the course/ Held in the chase/ My thoughts (heart) erased/ quiet now/ I still hear you/I’m still here/ yeah I’m found found/I feel too near you/ can you feel/ making sound/feel it through you/ turned around/ scream like we do/ am I stopping/ naw I’m singing/ moving us forward/ twisting the sound/ little bittoo far to miss the ground/ all making noises/sending it ‘round/spinning us faster/ ‘til we are found/ never stopping/ screaming