Zillo Magazine June 2005

It has been quite a long time between “Disorder” and your new album “Relapse”, nearly four years. What’s the reason for this long period?

A good amount of time was spent putting together the “Divided We Fall” remix collaboration I did with labelmate TL5 that was released on COP International in 2003. Other than that, between a full-time job as a molecular scientist and family, it can be hard to find time for music at all, but it’s something I am thankful to enjoy and plan to continue doing!

What is meant with the album title “Relapse”. What kind of relapse did you experience in the last years?

I chose the name “Relapse” as a continuation from the album “Disorder”. Over time I found it more difficult to remind myself of the reasons I had begun to write music in the first place, and I wanted to be sure I stuck to my roots. You could say I had a relapse of my state of mind in order to pick up where I had left off. A couple of the tracks on “Relapse” were originally written prior to “Disorder” as well.

Haven’t the last years been great for you at all?! Your song “Isolated” was picked for the very successful PC-Game “Vampire”, which also should have made Chiasm more popular…

Yes, it’s been a very exciting time in the past few months! I’ve heard from quite a few people worldwide and am pleased to know my music is being heard!

Your music has always been described (even by yourself) as dark electronic stuff. “Relapse” doesn’t sound to me like common dark electro: You used a lot of pianos, slow rhythms and Trip Hop-sounds. Where do you see Chiasm today and where are the most obvious (musical) differences between “Disorder” and “Relapse”?

I’m really not one for genre-typing, so the nearest description I have for my music is that it is electronic and dark. I’m not about fitting into any one particular style, or trying to sound like the next female version of so-and-so. I write the music for myself, and if others enjoy listening to it, that’s cool with me! My natural instrument is the piano, so I am drawn to it regularly while composing, but what you hear aside from the vocals and samples is completely synthesized. While some people view themselves as programmers that write music, I am a musician, and electronics are my tools. As far as where Chiasm as a musical entity lies, I look within and make a conscious effort not to be overly influenced by the music around me. My goal is not necessarily to write a catchy tune, but to paint my emotions with sound. I keep my options open and remain as true to myself as possible while following my instincts. When you listen to one of my albums, I have invited you into the deepest part of my soul. It’s almost invasive, but it seems that each listener gets something different out of the experience. Comparing the two albums, I feel the tracks are different enough among themselves to make a distinction, so I don’t see a big musical difference between the collections. The only technical difference is that I have some new equipment and more experience since “Disorder” was recorded, but as far as content, it’s all a part of me in one way or another, and the lyrics do all have a dark side.

Two tracks on “Relapse” are remixed by Zentriert ins Antlitz und Threat Level 5. Which relation do you have to them? And why did you want just them to make remixes?

COP International chose ZIA and TL5 as the remixers, and both are my labelmates. I think they do some really original and super work! I am especially pleased with their remixes and hope I have the opportunity to work with them again!

Chiasm is a “one-woman-show”. Is it difficult to succeed in a business that is still dominated by man? Where do you see advantages and where disadvantages?

No, I really don’t see a difference. At this point, my job is to make the music, and the business end is really up to the label. But I do think that we all get back what we put into our efforts! I work hard, I’m persistent, I try my best, and I enjoy what I’m doing… I think that’s all you can ask of anyone!

Thank you for your support!

-Emileigh


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